At age 16, I fell in love with electronic music. If anyone asks me what kind of music I listen to, I always say “everything.” Ask me what music I listen to the most? It’s always electronic music. First thing in the morning, it gives me a pick me up. In the afternoon, it gives me a second wind. And at night, I can dance the night away.
I can see electronic music visually, unlike most other music. When I hear a synth-y song, I can feel and envision the colors, textures, and movements. Most of all, electronic music reminds me that it is okay to be experimental, and that is exactly what I am doing with my “art.” The playlist below is a pretty accurate representation of songs I have been listening to on repeat lately–daydreaming about visual creations.
The playlist is titled “I Feel Pretty” because I do. I feel pretty. For a long time I didn’t. I felt lost, ugly, alone. I didn’t know who I was. Having a creative outlet has changed that game for me. And without electronic music, I can’t say that outlet would have been inspired. It’s expanded my mind to new possibilities. I learned that I could possibly create something out of nothing; that I could therefore create myself. I have the opportunity to be whoever I want to be.
These vibrant and almost clashing colors remind me of the music I listened to. Because it is a picture from my childhood, it brings me back to my childlike creativity. I always wore the most flamboyant clothes from age five to nineteen. I lost that sensibility (or lack there of) in college. I began to feel embarrassed of my self expression and completely uninspired. This lasted about 4 years. I am happy to say I’m finding that again. I’m creating it again.
And a final word, don’t hate on anyone for expressing oneself. Self expression is the most healthy thing a person can do next to eating kale. If you occupy your mind with hate for the creativity of others, you probably need self expression more than anyone. You need to get a life. Make it a goal.